Numb Feel

Fast asleep, my body numb
Can't move, can't speak, can't undo what's been done
What's happened has happened, just let it be.
The past is in the past, but holds a part of me.
Numb the pain, the inside anger.
Numb the sirens, red lights of danger.
Numb your spirit, let the fire die.
Numb your emotions, there's no need to cry.
Numb your love for the hurt it brings,
Numb yourself of all things.
Numb your body of the hurt in the past,
Numb the memories you don't want to last.
Numb moment that brings you power, entertainment release.
Numb the one you've tried forever, and still cannot seem to please.
Numb the one who broke your heart and told you nothing but lies.
Numb the one who told you so, the one who thinks she's so wise.
Numb the one who laughs in your face, when something doesn't go right.
Remember we all make mistakes, from darkness there is light.
Numb the imperfections you cannot change.
Numb the insecurities, the people you blame.
Numb the opportunity that passed you by.
When you thought you were not good enough and never bothered to try.
Numb the girl you compared yourself to, the one you wished to walk a day in her shoes.
Numb the shame you hold onto, before it becomes your life, before it controls you.
Numb the possibility you won't get picked, if your not what their looking for atleast you tried it.
Time to make some changes, because numbing out the world will not solve your problems.
Open your eyes, take a look around, PAY CLOSE ATTENTION, so when problems arrive you can solve them.
Wake up, what does your body feel??
take time away for yourself.
Feel the pain, don't keep in the anger.
Feel the need to forgive, be weary of danger.
Feel the weight being lifted off your shoulders,
Feel comfortable when someone wants to hold you
Feel the love, mend your broken heart.
Feel the hurt that made you fall apart.
Feel the memories, let the healing begin
Feel your strengths, not the weakness within.
Feel the moment that brings you pleasure with no shame,
for all the times you cross that line, you've only yourself to blame.
Feel the defense arise, when someone you love can only criticize.
You don't have to be perfect, you don't have to be like someone else....
Feel the need to be you, and no one else..... otherwise you'll lose yourself.
Feel these feelings, deal with them as they come.....
numbing it out, holding it inside, the battle cannot be won.
Feel the courage to ask for help.... you don't need to go through this alone.
And He will give you a helping hand, He will lead you home.

Fate???

Fate????

I'm walking through the Rideau Center and I run into someone I went to Highschool with..... We were both talking on cell phones, recognized each other at the same moment.... wow!!! We got off our phones immediately and tried to catch up.... years in a matter of minutes. Jobs, school, life.
I was on my way to the market to hand out resumes, which proceeded to do after our chat. I called my boyfriend back to tell him the news.
While in the Market, I came across the restaurant in which my old highschool buddy had just got hired. I walk in with a resume, and found myself in the middle of a group interview. Most of them were on their second or third. I missed the 3hr. assessment too. How shocked was I to be interviewed on the spot. Turns out the restaurant is opening up in a new location. I wondered which location she was going to work at?
It's evening and I've been out in the market for 4hrs. I arrive at my boyfriends house, only to realize we needed a few groceries tonight. We walk over to Billings Brigde. To Loblaws then to Zellers.... and guess who I run into again, 5 hours later???? My highscool buddy. Not to mention, there is a possibility that we could work together at the same restaurant.