25 Things about me

1. Becoming a mother is the best thing that could have ever happened to me. My family is number one.

2. I get anxious if I feel isolated or claustrophobic. I like open spaces, loose comfortable clothing, and can't wear choker necklaces.

3. I have an overactive imagination. I used to like scary movies, and now they seem to make me more paranoid.

4. I am always trying to diagnose myself... I am afraid to see the doctor, even more afraid that he'll find something.

5. The scar across my nose happened when I was 2, when I flew out of my car seat at a red light.

6. Writing is my passion, but I hate that I spend too much time trying to make it perfect. Why can't I just accept it for what it is?

7. Half way through a song I suffered a panic attack with no warning. It took the breath right out of me, like I was punched in the stomach. My lips were moving but no sound came out. Everyone thought there was a malfunction in the microphone, and I didn't tell them any different. I'm afraid it could happen again.

8. I wasn't really stood up by a friend the night I watched you play. None of them could make it out, and I knew I had to see you. I'm glad I did.

9. I have vivid dreams of flying, breathing underwater, and numbers.

10. I loved being physically stronger than my youngest sister until one day over powered me with little effort, I can only hope I am little wiser if she ever needed help or advice for any reason.

11. I used to get in trouble for telling stories, now I can't think of any. Hopefully someday I'll have a good story to tell.

12. Almost all the birds I saved probably would have survived if I had just let them be. I felt so guilty, but I longed to feel needed and had to always take care of something.

13. Not sure I could live in the country but I love the peaceful serenity to it.
Not sure I could live in a town but I miss the friendly nods and waves, but hated the fact that everyone knew your business, and the ridiculous spread of rumours.
Not sure if I love living in the city because it seems so hard to fit in, but I love that each day brings something new, and I cannot predict tomorrow.

14. The only CD's I have ever bought are Vanessa Carlton, Fiona Apple, Evanesence, Enigmna and relaxation CD's even though I can never seem to relax. I am always fidgeting, pacing, bouncing my knee, biting my nails, thinking and working.

15. The harder I try to remember to close cupboard doors and drawers, the more I think they're left open to drive me insane.

16. I am moved by opera. It's sounds so beautiful it brings tears to my eyes and stirs emotions that touch my heart. I have no idea what they are singing about but to me it feels like love and tragedy.

17. I leave little notes of encouragement and leave them in random places for strangers to find.

18. I would love to volunteer my time to make a positive difference in the lives of others like someone did for me and my family.

19. It has taken me years to be able to pick up the phone to order take out, make an appointment, or leave messages on answering machines because I hate the sound of my voice.

20. I'm embarrassed to admit how much I would need to rely on a calculator to do simple math.

21. I wish I could cook with out a cookbook, sing like no one was listening, write there was no tomorrow and dance like no one was watching.

22. I've been thinking about getting a tatoo to mark my 25th birthday this year, but I'm not sure what I would want on my body for the rest of my life. Perhaps it is just wishful thinking?

23. I appreciate hearing the same stories over and over again, because there is always some details that I missed the first time and I never know if it will be the last time I hear it. I'd give anything to hear my grandad tell his stories again.

24. My father has always been my strongest role model. I admire that he cares so much about making a difference.

25. My time spent with my family is more important than material status.

I love saying 'I love you'... It has never and will never outgrow me. I need to express my love verbally and physically always because that is how I was raised. My mom and dad, never stopped saying I love you. Never stopped hugging. Never stopped kissing. And never has it been awkward to do so. I'm grateful for that.
It is what got us through the hard times.